incoming merriment
i haven't been here in a while. but i'm about to go home for christmas so i am pulling on all creative outlets to hold me up. i'm already changing my approach a lot this year to try and mitigate the strain holidays with my family have on my body. i'm only going for part of my 3 week winter break, where as in the past i've basically been there from december 1st to january 1st. i simply cannot! no more! nicole is going to be there on and off for most of the week too, staying with me since her family is very spread out. adam is also coming; the flight to new york and back to be with his family was going to be way too much and he didn't want to leave his dog with a stranger. so i have a little bubble of friendship to serve as a buffer between me and the generational trauma that will come barking undoubtedly. i've been listening to the twilight and new moon soundtracks on a loop lately. and reading sarah dessen, my favorite classic YA romance girly. nostalgia like armor wrapped around me. basically i have been feeling like hammered dog shit, but i am very determined to make this holiday OK at the very least. my gifts are mostly done and wrapped, too. i had to go pretty small this year, as i'm sure you'll notice there won't be any cards with the polaroid this year. i hate to break my streak but it just wasn't in my budget! mostly my emotional budget since the Brad who features in the polaroids is at my parents' and that is where i am not. lol. but know i am sending love and hope for the year ahead for us both.